Energy Blueprint
Usually I go at the world by posting about public domain and ranting/raving/questioning the data. The question today is should I do that? Or better yet, where should I be spending my precious attention. Now, I don't want to sound self absorbed. Nay, I wake-up every day and propose this question, "What do I want to do?" Right now, I have a choice (kind-of). I am currently unemployed (full-time) and have some hours to spend doing whatever I want. Where do I begin? Should I watch a presidential debate? I really want to, but then I remember that the primary isn't until AFTER Super Tuesday and by that time I won't have much of a choice. Read the paper? I love the paper!!! I begin to read it and become instantly disappointed in the material being presented 45% of the time. Do I plan my wedding? I'd love to. Do I get a new job? Why should I if I am enjoying my free time. The funny thing is that I have been begging for this free time and now that I have it, I don't know what to do with it. Granted, I haven't had a life full of work yet to be complaining, but when I taught full-time all I could do was dream for that winter day where nobody was around and I could relax, read, and contemplate. As I look back to what I've accomplished, it doesn't amount to much and I realize I could be contributing elsewhere. I could even spend my time writing, composing music, reading...NO! I succumb to the box and the devil named PS2. Whenever I do become inspired, which happens quite frequently, it's always in short bursts of whatever. I'm not sad or mad; down and out. I'm not even deserving of this predicament. Just flustered and scared knowing that there are a ton of people probably thinking the same thing. What could we all do together?
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Very thoughtful and honest. I like the way you think.
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